Hello, so today’s post is something that I would write in my journal but I thought I’d post it on here just incase, I don’t know someone else feels the same and wants to know they’re not alone or just want to have a insight on me and how I feel day to day. It’s nothing major it’s just I have a lot of negative thought towards myself. I’m going through a time where I’m really lacking self confidence, In me as a person, in my body and recently my blog.
I’m never feeling like what I do is good enough and that I’m going to fail, even if everyone around me is telling me different. It’s not an attention thing like it’s really not.
My weight and body is something I’ve had a problem with for as long as I can remember, don’t get me wrong I never judge people on their size I would never look down on someone because they’re not societies view of skinny. But when it comes to myself I’m really self conscious about it, I’ll break down because I’ve eaten a bag of crisps and I think they’re going to make me fat. I’m not fat but that’s how I view myself no matter how much o try not to.
The lack of confidence in my blog is new. I love blogging it’s one of my passions but lately I’ve been feeling like nothing I post it interesting, no one wants to read it. It makes me sad because I try hard but then I can’t think of anything to write about. I hope i am writing interesting stuff for all of you. I like it when all comment so I can interact with you all.
All I want to say it that having no self confidence is something that is a real struggle in my life and anyone else’s who has it too. They are days where you feel confident and it’s not necessarily a constant thing but when those days hit it’s hard.
Sorry for the negative post, I just wanted to get it out there. I didn’t do this to bring any attention to myself I’m really not like that. If you’ve felt the same as me just know you’re not alone! If anyone ever wants advice, help or just a chat, all emails are welcome at firstname.lastname@example.org I will always get back to you!
p.s this is my other email because I don’t feel comfortable putting my more personal main email on here yet but both are linked to my laptop and come up as a notification!
Sincerely, S x