I did it!! // Jeffree star Review

Hello everybody! I hope everyone’s had a good weekend, whatever the weather. I can imagine if you’re like me you’re gutted it’s Monday tomorrow!

HOWEVER I have so new that may or may not cheer a few of you up, I finally combatted a minor part of my anxiety and have finically uploaded my first video to YouTube! I am so excited and overwhelmed at the same time 😀 I hope that some of you join me over on my channel and subscribe, but of course you’re not expected to! I hope this encourages anyone battling mental health illnesses that stop them doing what they wanna do. YOU CAN DO IT.

ANYWAYS…enough nervous ramblings, you can find my first video below. No hate please, but as always, constructive criticism is welcome!

MY FIRST YOUTUBE VID

Sincerely, S x

Paperless Post Collab!

Hello everyone, with my birthday coming up I thought I’d use this time to do another collaboration with Paperless post and show just how easy using the site is! With family all over the place, using the paperless post system makes inviting everyone so much easier.

So I designed some save the dates for my 21st birthday party, in just a few simple steps. First you pick the type of post you want to send, from invitations to flyers, then the template/design you want. Then you’ll want to change the envelope style (of course this is only a virtual envelope that opens when the recipient clicks)

Now you’ll want to edit the details, the style of this will depend on the type of post you decide to do, because I chose a save the date, it requires info on the event such as name, place and time. And then finally the email addresses of the recipient, I’ve used my own address as an example so I’m not showing my family’s details but hopefully you get the gist 🙂

See! It really is all that simple, the only catch it that it’s not free…you’ll need to buy coins with your pennies, to spend on the post, but don’t worry if you’re only sending a few you won’t need many coins!

All you need to do it go to https://www.paperlesspost.com and you’re on your way!

Sincerely, S x

don’t forget to check out my channel for videos coming soon Sophs Channel

and my twitter @_omgsxph

Grief

Hey there, I know its been a hella long time, mainly because i WAS planning on starting up youtube, but then my stupid low self-esteem and life got in the way. I still plan to start-up my channel and will be doing so in the next few weeks but for now, here’s a little post of grief.

My nan passed on April 26th this year, completely sudden, no illnesses, no reason to prepare ourselves, nothing. Anyone who knows me, knows that my nan was my absolute idol, I adored her. I was closer to her than anyone else in my family and i loved her so so so dearly. When i found out she had passed i was actually really ill, I’d lost my voice. But boy did i find it again, screaming, crying, trying to comfort my mum down the phone. The worst time of my life so far, easily. I was even the one who had to break it to my brother, who was actually nearly the one who found her dead. Anyone who has lost a close one knows how hard it really is, and of course everyone deals with it differently.

For me, I couldn’t cope, i couldn’t function. Non stop crying and sinking into the worst place i could be mentally but at the same time wanted to stand strong because of my mum and my younger sister. For my brother it meant seeming fine, but taking anger out on things when he was away from us (he’s autistic and has adhd) so the first thing i want to say about grieving is that just because someone seems ok, it really doesn’t mean that they are. I wanted to be around my family for about a week, only left their house to go home and sleep and then i was straight back in the morning, helping plan, helping out where i can. Crying every time i was home.

To cope with these heavy emotions I decided to focus on my uni deadline which was a week after i found out, because she’d want me to do well, i then came up with a summer project to keep myself busy and so i started to paint. I never painted properly before, hated it in school but i found these relatively good skills as i started top paint her favourite bird, Puffins. Keeping my mind busy helped but it didn’t stop the overwhelming tears that came when night fell. I think the best advice i could give to someone who’s grieving is to just accept it, accept your feelings, let it out because if you bottle it up it’ll only build and build and then come out in a bad wave later on in life. Talk to people, tell them how you feel, they will validate your feelings and make sure you know it’s ok to feel how you do, stay away from people who don’t do this.

I also designed the funeral order of service for her and for people to take home and keep, this made me feel better because I felt like i was doing one last good thing for her.

There are so many resources and sites you can use as well, there’s always someone there to help with your grieving, reach out. Lastly, don’t let people tell you how to deal with it, not everyone can work through it, not everyone heals by keeping busy, some people need time to let it sink in and heal. Do whats best for you.

-S x

I’m moving!!! Youtube here I come.

Hello everybody! Just a quick post today to say that I will be moving to Youtube in the next couple weeks and probably won’t be posting on here as much but I will still be posting hopefully. This has been a long time goal for me, i’ve always wanted to do it but never had the confidence but now I have purchased a camera which will be here tomorrow hopefully and then we’re pretty much good to go.

The kinds of content i’ll be creating will be anything from beauty to mental health to paranormal experiences. Hopefully things people can enjoy, I would drop my channel here but I haven’t thought of a name yet! if you have any suggestions then let me know!.

Anyways, hopefully see you all on the youtube side, if anyone has any advice, suggestions on anything youtube related then please let me know!

Sincerely,

-S x

Let’s Talk about Body dysmorphia

Hi guys, ive chosen to write about this topic because its something that’s really pressing on my at the moment and I’m really struggling with it.

So, if you didn’t know, body dysmorphia is a mental illness that makes a person spend most of their time worrying about any flaws in their appearance, most commonly their weight.  People with this condition will spend lengths of time in front of the mirror picking at themselves, comparing themselves to others, putting a lot of effort into hiding said ‘flaws’ like wearing baggy clothes or lots of makeup. BD is also commonly linked to depression and in extreme cases self harm and/or suicide.

For me, I spend a LOT of time worrying about my weight, some days I’ll wake up feeling super toned and skinny…which i definitely am not, and others i feel incredibly large. Much larger than i wish to be. This makes my day-to-day life so hard because i spend the whole time worrying about what i look like to other people, and when im not worrying about that i just generally don’t feel comfortable in my own skin. I feel disgusting. I also have depression and anxiety amongst others but these 3 do not mix well together. Another major issue is that i find myself getting so angry and upset with the people close to me because i dont see myself the way they do so to me, they’re all lying. It’s a struggle.

But I just basically wanted to say that BD is real, and people well and truly struggle with it but that’s okay, you can get help!

I’m also always here to talk to anyone that needs to just express themselves.

Stay Strong everyone!!

sIncerely,

S x