Hello everybody! I hope everyone’s had a good weekend, whatever the weather. I can imagine if you’re like me you’re gutted it’s Monday tomorrow!
HOWEVER I have so new that may or may not cheer a few of you up, I finally combatted a minor part of my anxiety and have finically uploaded my first video to YouTube! I am so excited and overwhelmed at the same time 😀 I hope that some of you join me over on my channel and subscribe, but of course you’re not expected to! I hope this encourages anyone battling mental health illnesses that stop them doing what they wanna do. YOU CAN DO IT.
ANYWAYS…enough nervous ramblings, you can find my first video below. No hate please, but as always, constructive criticism is welcome!
Hello everyone! welcome back to another post, I’m really excited for this one. Anyone who knows me well knows that I LOVE murder cases, unsolved cases and serial killers (love learning about them not actually love them) just as much as I love beauty and lifestyle. SO I’ve decided that it would be good for me to do a post about these things once a week, probably Tuesday as you can tell by the title but I could always make in Murder Monday or something like that.
Anyways, as it’s my first post of the series I thought I’d kick it off with a one of my favourite cases to read about/watch documentaries on. I also have multiple views on this case that I was explain through the ‘case file’ I’ll be creating for you guys. I’m not going to go into the FULL details of it because it’ll be too long of a post but if you enjoy this, there’s loads to read up on and watch.
So grab yourself a drink and some food and get ready join the investigation, you’re going to be intrigued with this one.
On December 26, Patsy Ramsey (JonBenet’s mother) woke up in the early hours (around 5.00am) to find a ransom note on the stairs addressed to her husband John. She then went to JonBenet’s room to find she was not there. The police were called by 5.25am.
The ransom note stated (in a very out of the ordinary long way) that in order for their daughter to come home safe they must provide the kidnappers with $118,000, which coincidently is almost the exact amount that John had just received in his bonus, its also a very specific number compared to what is usually seen in random notes. The ‘intruders’ also said they would make a call to John to give instructions on the delivery of the money and not to inform the police or JonBenet would be killed, which they completely ignored. Strangely, the call never came. There were a few unusual things about the note, first of all its length..typically a ransom not is a few sentences long. Explaining who they have, what they want and what to do, but this one was 2 and half! Secondly, the police determined that the note must’ve been written from within the house which is extremely risky for a normal length note let alone an extra long one. It’s unlikely that an intruder would’ve had time to or risked taking JonBenet and writing the note at the same time whilst the family slept. Investigators believed that the note was staged because it did not have any fingerprints, it had an unusual amount of exclamation marks and acronyms in weird places and the pen and pad were both Patsy Ramseys and were placed back where they belong after. Many believed it was Patsy herself that wrote the note, and part of me does too however they couldn’t prove it. It wasn’t long before the police started to suspect that the Ramseys were involved.
There are a few things that were strange about the call Patsy made to the police once she discovered the note. The calls been analysed by many figures and most have come to the same conclusion of something not quite right. First of all, when she calls and the police answer she’s says “we have a kidnapping. Hurry, please” which isn’t as specific as you would expect from a panicked mother. You’d normally expect a ‘our daughters missing’ but this wasn’t mentioned until about the third sentence. There is a fully broken down analysis of the transcript here.. http://www.statementanalysis.com/jonbenet-ramsey-murder/
Another suspicious part of the call is when Patsy had terminated the call, the line stayed open due to what must’ve been a miss placement of the phone, the woman who answered Patsys call had claimed to have heard voices in the distance, possibly saying things like “what did you do?” and “we’re not talking to you” raising more suspicion.
Finding the Body
At 1:00 p.m, Detective Arndt asked John and Fleet White (family friend) to search the house to see if anything had changed or gone missing. I have heard that they were told to start at the top of the house and work down but the two headed straight to the basement where, low and behold, little JonBenet’s body lay, under a white blanket. Officer French had apparently tried to open the door before but it was latched shut, however its also reported that John tried to sway investigators away from the door, claiming it has been painted shut. John then made the mistake of moving her body upstairs, which would have more than likely contaminated any evidence on her, and made the crime scene less accurate for photos etc. She was found with her mouth duct taped shut and nylon cords around her neck and wrists.
The autopsy showed that she was killed by asphyxiation and a skull fracture. The Asphyxia would have been fro a garrote (this was made of a piece of white cord and tightened by being wound round a broken paintbrush) the skull injury is thought to of been by a torch, however it is unknown as to whether the skull trauma or the strangulation came first. There was no evidence to suggest rape but sexual assault could not be ruled out, there were small abrasion around her private area. There were also small pieces of pineapple in her intestines which correlates to the bowl that was left on the side. JonBenet’s body had entered rigorous mortis which led the investigators to conclude that the time of death was between 10:00pm (Dec,25) and 6:00am, but because of the signs of decomposition it is believed she would have died closer to 10:00pm, just an hour after the Ramseys had claimed to have gone to bed…
I’m actually going to stop this post here because theres so much more to get into and I don’t want to make this post too long that people lose interest. I will post part 2 either in a few days or the same day next week, but for now..happy reading!!
-p.s if anyone has any theories or has read cool facts that not many people know about etc that feel free to comment below! I’d love to hear.
Hello there my lovelies, long time no post right? Well I’m back and today I have a lovely haul for you all because these are my favourite posts to write and fave videos to watch on YouTube! I popped into Superdrug last week and picked up almost a full face of new products that I haven’t tried before! However my heart sunk when I got to the till thinking I don’t spent £50 and the cashier said £90. But at least if got plenty to blog about!!
First up I’ll do all the bits from Makeup Revolution because they’re the majority of this haul. I’ve been such a big fan of their products for so long now, at least 3 years! It’s so nice to watch them improve and grow, I have enough of their products to have my own pop up shop!
So I picked up the Revolution Pro full cover camouflage foundation in the shade F2, I’ve been keen to try this for a while now. I usually use the L’Oreal true match foundation but I found it quite drying and it tends to oxidise to a shade that’s not really my colour. I also picked up the Revolution Pro pressed powder, again I’ve been dying to try it out, I have a loose setting powder at the moment but I feel like the pressed powders are more travel friendly and convenient. Next i have the Revolution Pro Lip scrub, I love lip scrubs and I’m keen to see how this one works! I picked up the Makeup Revolution Ultra Pro HD Powder Contour kit, I was looking to get one because I’ve been using the Nip&Fab one but I find the colours a little to warm for my pale face. I got the Revolution Pro Illuminate which is a stunning highlight, I used it today and I’m in love!! I then picked up The Revolution Pro lipstick collection in The Matte Noire collection. I have to say I swatched these after I got home and the formula was not what I was hoping , which is unusual because their single lipsticks and liquid lipsticks are actually really good! I picked up the Revolution Pro Hydrating Primer and you guys, I was SO happy to see this because I have such dry skin and most primers don’t really tend to do anything and my foundation sticks to my dry patches but I’m really hoping this improves that! The last two things from Makeup Rev. Are the brow pomade in Blonde, and the duo brow definer because ive been trying to find different ways of doing my brows as I was getting annoyed with my brow powder. So that was the Makeup Rev. side of things now onto the rest.
I then picked up a new bronzer and blush from MUA which I can’t wait to try the next time I do my full face!
Skincare and nails
I also decided I needed to expand my skincare range as I don’t tend to look after my face too much after taking makeup off etc. I found some bits that I’m praying do my skin some good. So I found these cleansing pads from the Vitamin C range in Superdrug and they’re actually really good! They smell amazing and feel really refreshing on the eyes and they’re much better for you skin than baby wipes. I recommend!! Then I discovered the Calm Skin range and HAD to try some bits so I picked up the Soothing Facial Cleanser, Refreshing Mist and the 2 in 1 serum and moisturiser. I haven’t tried them yet but I will be soon so if you’d like a review then comment below! Of course I had to pick up some sheet masks, I got the Garnier Moisture bomb mask and the Moisture Bomb Eye sheet mask which looks like a superhero’s mask (lowkey the reason I picked it up). I’ve tried the full face sheet mask before so I know it’s really good already but I’m hoping the eye one does wonders as most of my dry patches are on and around my eyes. And finally I picked up and new Barry M nail varnish in the shade “Black Cherry” (I think) because i felt like I needed a new colour.
So that’s my Superdrug haul I’ll be purchasing some bits on Friday so if you’d like another haul then let me know! If you’d like any reviews, tips or swatches for any of the products above then please feel free to comment below! I’d love to hear from you😌
I know I said once a week I’d do these “lets talks” but I finally have a day off and time to write one so I thought why not!
Toxic relationships are so common which breaks my heart in all honesty. Don’t be fooled and think that they’re just in romantic relationships either, is just as possible to have a toxic friendship and you need to be able to know when you’re in one so you can get out of it.
These types of relationships can be the starter of mental illnesses like depression, borderline personality disorder and anxiety so it’s important to get yourself out and cut the toxicity out of your life before your mental state deteriorates.
Please note that even though I am and will be talking from a female perspective in a heterosexual relationship, both men and women can be victims of it and they can happen in all types of relationships.
I’m going to talk about the signs that you’re in a TR but also the positives of getting out.
Do they make you feel guilty about innocent things? Such as wearing certain clothing and spending time with other friends? This is NOT ok. Do you find yourself apologising for having feelings because they upset you yet made you look like the bad guy? NOT ok. Do you feel like you’re isolated, spending time with only them yet they can do whatever they want, see whoever they want? NOT OK. I spent a lot of time apologising because I was told i should “hide my feelings because it might upset that person” but that’s not okay. It drove me into a self harming state where I was then told i was “pathetic”. Crying in front of people meant that I was “attention seeking”. WRONG. A lot of this is control and it’s 100% not ok.
You need to be able to voice you concerns, your feelings, anything. If you can’t do so without feeling bad or without being belittled then that’s not a healthy relationship. Healthy relationships include communication, and being able to talk to each other without an issue and coming to understandings. In a friendship, if you feel your friend is being out of line you should be able to say so without it being turned round back onto you. Same in a relationship and your s/o should care enough for you to do this.
Thankfully I have not experienced a physically toxic relationship but there are plenty around. If you do not feel safe with that person then you need to find your escape. I know sometimes it can be scary but you need to find someone to reach out to and they will help. I also understand that sometimes in a relationship that is psychologically unhealthy it is hard to walk away because you feel like you need someone and they always know just the right thing to say to make you stay. Trust me, you don’t need them. You feel like if you leave you’ll feel alone and you’re not prepared to feel like that. You know that when the times are bad they’re awful but when they’re good, they’re amazing and that’s what you hold onto but you need to think more about the negative side because you need to put yourself first. Being alone and feeling alone can be horrible yes but once you push through that stage (and you will because you’re strong) you will feel so much better. You’ll start to love yourself when you didn’t before because of how little they made you feel. You’ll find happiness in yourself and then you can, not find happiness in someone else , but share your happiness with someone else. You need to stop the want and need to repair the relationship and accept that it’s not good for you, always put yourself and your mental state first.
Another sign is fighting, yes of course every kind of relationships has its quarrels but when it gets to the point where it’s constant and about the tiniest things, that’s when it’s abnormal. When you feel like everything you do causes an argument because it’s “not okay” that’s a problem. Walk away. The best thing for you to do is walk away, no matter how hard.
The most obvious one is that you’re miserable, all the time. You’ll pretend like your relationship is going amazing to other people but behind closed walls you’re down, sad, walking on eggshells to avoid another argument. Sometimes you’ll be happy because you’ll have that one good day that’s amazing but then it’s back to the same routine.
No one is worth wrecking your mental state over. No matter how much you love them or think you love them, you need to cut ties to any negativity to help you live your best life. If they cared the same way they wouldn’t treat you the way they do. It’s the actions of people that show how they feel, remember that.
Please put yourself first, if you need help please seek it, there’s so many people that will help if you reach out. I’m here to talk to anyone too.
Hello everyone! Something different this time. I’ve decided that, although I love makeup and all things beauty related, beauty isn’t an ‘important’ topic. I’m going to be posting “let’s talk” posts at least once a week, I hope, on topics that people can hopefully relate to. Today’s one is as it says in the title, mental health.
I can’t begin to express just how important having good mental health is. People seem to not care about it because it’s not physical and you “cant see it”. In reality you can see it, if you actually pay attention to those around you and realise what you are seeing, you can see it so easily and this is what we need to do more.
That boy who throws up when he’s in a group of people he doesn’t really know? He’s suffering with severe anxiety. That girl who seems “moody”, “anti social”, tired and “out of it”? She’s suffering form depression and is likely feeling like she’s all alone. People ignore these signs but they’re the ones we need to look out for.
As a sufferer of both depression and anxiety I know how overwhelming it can feel and just how lonely it can feel at the same time. I’m thankful I have a level of anxiety I can cope with, I just get anxious of the REALLY silly things like playing games in front of people. But these aren’t irrational and it’s important to remember that just because you don’t see the reason to be worried, doesn’t mean its an irrational fear. Don’t make someone feel little about something they feel is a big deal.
As for depression, there’s so many small signs you can look out for in someone to know whether they may have it or not. Knowing them means you can offer help or be someone they can talk to. It can be incredibly hard for a sufferer to just go about their daily lives. They’ll often find it hard to get out of bed for reason they can’t explain and when they do it’s a great accomplishment to them. Here’s a few things to look out for in your loved ones and nearest and dearest:
• being down and withdrawn
• constantly tired
• lack of motivation (usually to do with getting out of bed or doing daily things such as showering)
• seeming “zoned out”
• losing interest in things that usually make them happy
• low sex drive
• change in eating habits (overeating or losing appetite)
As for anxiety signs, they’re different for different people but the common ones are panic attacks and feeling/being sick.
Having a mental health problem is often just as bad as having a physical health problem and some people are suffering a lot more, finding it a lot harder to come out of it. Many believe that death is the only way out. If you look out for the signs, listen to people and provide support you can make someone life a much less lonely place. However, do not let someone with poor mental health manipulate you into thinking you have to revolve around them otherwise they’ll hurt themselves. This will only bring you down too.
Just look, listen and let’s end the stigma and drop the suicide statistics.
I haven’t done a beauty post for a while so i thought i’d do one today and since i purchase two items recently i thought it would be the perfect chance to do a post.
I’ve seen a lot of ebay find videos on youtube and they were quite popular, hopefully you guys enjoy my blog post! I purchased an eye shadow palette and four eye make up brushes, both of the products i am very pleased with. Anyways let’s get talking about them!
Okay, so the first item was this amazing 120 colour eye shadow palette. Now, unfortunately the postman did not read the fragile sign on the parcel and literally chucked the parcel through the letter box making two colours smash 😦 but i fixed them! I got the more neutral toned palette but you can get another, very vibrant version full of all the colours in the rainbow if you wish! This one was only £5.00 which i thought was amazing for the amount of colours you get, the quality is amazing too! All the colours are very pigmented and there’s both matte and shimmery colours! I’m really looking forward to see what looks i can create with this one!
The other item i got was these beautiful rose gold eye brushes, with white and pink hair. I am in love with these brushes, i love rose gold things and these brushes are just so pretty! And for the cheap price of £1.58 too! i was amazed! They feel good quality too, they’re soft but not too soft, the small one are a bit tougher which is exactly how you’d expect them to be. I really can’t wait to use these to create some pretty eye looks.
Hope you guys enjoyed my post, if you want the links comment below and i will send them too you and if you know of any good ebay bargains on make up then feel free to comment the links to me! I’m looking for a set of matte liquid lipsticks next!
Today was the summer finale for Pretty Little Liars, but fear not, the final 10 episodes EVER will be aired April 2017!
It was a very good finale with a lot of mixed emotions going around, here’s my thoughts on it. Firstly how crazy is Hanna? Going after Noel by herself, of course we all knew it wouldn’t go as perfectly as planned but wow Hanna! Also who’s idea was it to give the blind girl the gun?! We all knew trouble was to come after seeing Jenna Marshal walking round with a gun in hand trying to follow the liars round a dark and dusty old house. I’m extremely shocked that both Spencer and Toby ended up hurt…but are they dead?? I guess we’ll have to wait until next year to find out! But as we know, those who appear to die tend to have a way of come back *cough cough* Alison. I hope that they’re not dead and rather just extremely hurt because Spoby was a favourite of mine and we can’t have the final 10 episodes without them, can we?
Another complete bombshell was Mary Drake being Spencer’s mum?! I had suspicions but i never thought they’d really go there and i’m not sure it was a good move either. What do you guys think? And if noel isn’t the other child then what is his role in all this? Why does he hate the liars so much? So many unanswered questions still.
Overall i did find the episode very good and it had a high shock factor but one thing that really irritated me was how they’ve made Ezra completely forget about Aria once he saw Nicole, Ezria is a pair that has been shipped from the start and I think it’s one that should stay till the end…but i guess if things aren’t going to work out between them,Aria always has Jason to lean back on.
I could ramble on all day about the episode but then it would get boring, please let me know what you guys thought of it and mention any theories you have..i love hearing them!