Hello guys and gals enjoy another weekly video! Testing some makeup that’s new, to me at least.
Huge fashion and beauty haul up now and mental health one coming tonight🖤
Hello everybody! I hope everyone’s had a good weekend, whatever the weather. I can imagine if you’re like me you’re gutted it’s Monday tomorrow!
HOWEVER I have so new that may or may not cheer a few of you up, I finally combatted a minor part of my anxiety and have finically uploaded my first video to YouTube! I am so excited and overwhelmed at the same time 😀 I hope that some of you join me over on my channel and subscribe, but of course you’re not expected to! I hope this encourages anyone battling mental health illnesses that stop them doing what they wanna do. YOU CAN DO IT.
ANYWAYS…enough nervous ramblings, you can find my first video below. No hate please, but as always, constructive criticism is welcome!
Sincerely, S x
Hey there, I know its been a hella long time, mainly because i WAS planning on starting up youtube, but then my stupid low self-esteem and life got in the way. I still plan to start-up my channel and will be doing so in the next few weeks but for now, here’s a little post of grief.
My nan passed on April 26th this year, completely sudden, no illnesses, no reason to prepare ourselves, nothing. Anyone who knows me, knows that my nan was my absolute idol, I adored her. I was closer to her than anyone else in my family and i loved her so so so dearly. When i found out she had passed i was actually really ill, I’d lost my voice. But boy did i find it again, screaming, crying, trying to comfort my mum down the phone. The worst time of my life so far, easily. I was even the one who had to break it to my brother, who was actually nearly the one who found her dead. Anyone who has lost a close one knows how hard it really is, and of course everyone deals with it differently.
For me, I couldn’t cope, i couldn’t function. Non stop crying and sinking into the worst place i could be mentally but at the same time wanted to stand strong because of my mum and my younger sister. For my brother it meant seeming fine, but taking anger out on things when he was away from us (he’s autistic and has adhd) so the first thing i want to say about grieving is that just because someone seems ok, it really doesn’t mean that they are. I wanted to be around my family for about a week, only left their house to go home and sleep and then i was straight back in the morning, helping plan, helping out where i can. Crying every time i was home.
To cope with these heavy emotions I decided to focus on my uni deadline which was a week after i found out, because she’d want me to do well, i then came up with a summer project to keep myself busy and so i started to paint. I never painted properly before, hated it in school but i found these relatively good skills as i started top paint her favourite bird, Puffins. Keeping my mind busy helped but it didn’t stop the overwhelming tears that came when night fell. I think the best advice i could give to someone who’s grieving is to just accept it, accept your feelings, let it out because if you bottle it up it’ll only build and build and then come out in a bad wave later on in life. Talk to people, tell them how you feel, they will validate your feelings and make sure you know it’s ok to feel how you do, stay away from people who don’t do this.
I also designed the funeral order of service for her and for people to take home and keep, this made me feel better because I felt like i was doing one last good thing for her.
There are so many resources and sites you can use as well, there’s always someone there to help with your grieving, reach out. Lastly, don’t let people tell you how to deal with it, not everyone can work through it, not everyone heals by keeping busy, some people need time to let it sink in and heal. Do whats best for you.
Hello everybody! Just a quick post today to say that I will be moving to Youtube in the next couple weeks and probably won’t be posting on here as much but I will still be posting hopefully. This has been a long time goal for me, i’ve always wanted to do it but never had the confidence but now I have purchased a camera which will be here tomorrow hopefully and then we’re pretty much good to go.
The kinds of content i’ll be creating will be anything from beauty to mental health to paranormal experiences. Hopefully things people can enjoy, I would drop my channel here but I haven’t thought of a name yet! if you have any suggestions then let me know!.
Anyways, hopefully see you all on the youtube side, if anyone has any advice, suggestions on anything youtube related then please let me know!
So does anyone ever tell themselves that they’ll get something done and literally never get round to doing it? because that is pretty much what this haul is, a mixture of times when ive shopped and christmas presents all put into one massive haul because i simply put it off for too long.
don’t worry though, the last part of the JonBenet case will come soon.
My order from M.A.C was actually my first ever, i know right?! crazy. I actually spoke to an online MUA on their website, she was super helpful, i asked for product that are good for people with dry skin because i always struggle to find foundations that don’t show all your dry patches and she also recommended me a primer and moisturizer. I took the plunge and bought everything she recommended and i actually really love it all, however i feel like I’m a shade down from the one she suggested but that’s not the end of the world. So i got the Studio Fix Fluid SPF 15 foundation in the shade NW15, the studio moisture cream and the Prep + Prime Skin base Visage. i think i need to order the fix+ next!
Then from BeautyBay I ordered some bits in the sale they had on, I picked up a Jeffree Star liquid lipstick in the shade ‘Leo’ because that’s my star sign and its also almost my perfect nude brown shade, i love it. I also picked up the RCMA no colour setting powder, if seen so many people rave about this so i really wanted to try it for myself. On the boring side i wanted to try a new eyeshadow primer because i usually always use my Makeup Revolution one, so i picked the wet n wild long-lasting eyeshadow primer. And finally i chose theBalm’s Anti Orange bronzer in the shade ‘Oliver’ and some ABH mini matte lipsticks, i actually love the bronzer its such a good shade for my skin and also isn’t crazy pigmented that it messes your makeup up, and the lipstick feel so nice on the lips, not drying at all.
Now, this week I took a little trip to Bluewater shopping centre in London for some retail therapy and i did manage to spoil myself. *THIS IS NOT A BRAGGING POST I AM SIMPLE SHARING THINGS THAT I HAVE BECAUSE I KNOW PEOPLE LIKE TO SEE THESE TYPES OF POST, INCLUDING MYSELF* I went into a LOT of shops and i mean a lot, my feet were so sore but it was worth it. They main thing i treated myself to was a Michael Kors bag, I’ve genuinely wanted one for so long so it felt good to be able to treat myself to it finally. PLUS they had a sale on so i got it a lot cheaper. The bag i chose was a smallish shoulder bag called ‘Selma’ in black. In boots i only picked up a few bits, a new lip plumper from soap and glory because mine was running low, i get the clear one, the Honey primer from NYX (tried this today and loved it) the NYX ‘Can’t Stop Wont Stop’ foundation (again, tried it today and loved it) and a pencil eyeliner from NYX.
I was SO excited when I found out Bluewater had a Too Faced shop, so of course i went in there, i wanted most of the shop but managed to contain myself and only purchased a few things; the Better Than Sex mascara, White Peach eye palette and a melted matte lipstick in ‘Evil Twin’, I cant wait to try them out. As much as i hate going into Lush because of how they always want to talk to you and i have bad anxiety, i really wanted to new bath and body bits so i went in and got two baths bombs; ‘Peachy’ and ‘Turtle Jelly’ and also the ‘Rose Jam’ shower gel and the shower scrub in ‘scrub scrub scrub’ which is a black scrub with charcoal etc in. Hopefully they do my skin wonders.
Victorias secret and their Pink store both had a 5 for £25 sale on their pants so i picked up some of those and i also found these jogger style lounge pants that were so incredibly soft that i HAD to try them. (see photo of gray and white trousers with rose on). I also went into new look to get a Teddy coat that i had been eyeing up for a while, i love it!
Last but not least, from the london trip, I went into paperchase. I have an obsession with buying notebooks to of course i picked up two and i also found some cool feminism badges and pins so picked those up as well.
Now finally for the christmas pressies, I was a little spoilt by various people around me, my boyfriend got me the Jeffree Star Liquid lipstick nudes 2 vault which i was SHOOK at, he also got me the beauty bay brushes, their Going Out palette and a graphics tablet! My mum then got me the Makeup Revolution gift box set which had so many goodies in, im in love, a mug, some smellies for the shower, MORE makeup brushes and the newest Soph X Makeup Revolution palette. I also got new GHDs from my boyfriends mum, i really did not expect to unwrap them and honestly almost cried!
SO that’s my big haul everyone, hope you all enjoyed it, let me know if you want reviews on anything!
P.S sorry it’s so long! I underestimated how much their was until i typed it up haha!