Grief

Hey there, I know its been a hella long time, mainly because i WAS planning on starting up youtube, but then my stupid low self-esteem and life got in the way. I still plan to start-up my channel and will be doing so in the next few weeks but for now, here’s a little post of grief.

My nan passed on April 26th this year, completely sudden, no illnesses, no reason to prepare ourselves, nothing. Anyone who knows me, knows that my nan was my absolute idol, I adored her. I was closer to her than anyone else in my family and i loved her so so so dearly. When i found out she had passed i was actually really ill, I’d lost my voice. But boy did i find it again, screaming, crying, trying to comfort my mum down the phone. The worst time of my life so far, easily. I was even the one who had to break it to my brother, who was actually nearly the one who found her dead. Anyone who has lost a close one knows how hard it really is, and of course everyone deals with it differently.

For me, I couldn’t cope, i couldn’t function. Non stop crying and sinking into the worst place i could be mentally but at the same time wanted to stand strong because of my mum and my younger sister. For my brother it meant seeming fine, but taking anger out on things when he was away from us (he’s autistic and has adhd) so the first thing i want to say about grieving is that just because someone seems ok, it really doesn’t mean that they are. I wanted to be around my family for about a week, only left their house to go home and sleep and then i was straight back in the morning, helping plan, helping out where i can. Crying every time i was home.

To cope with these heavy emotions I decided to focus on my uni deadline which was a week after i found out, because she’d want me to do well, i then came up with a summer project to keep myself busy and so i started to paint. I never painted properly before, hated it in school but i found these relatively good skills as i started top paint her favourite bird, Puffins. Keeping my mind busy helped but it didn’t stop the overwhelming tears that came when night fell. I think the best advice i could give to someone who’s grieving is to just accept it, accept your feelings, let it out because if you bottle it up it’ll only build and build and then come out in a bad wave later on in life. Talk to people, tell them how you feel, they will validate your feelings and make sure you know it’s ok to feel how you do, stay away from people who don’t do this.

I also designed the funeral order of service for her and for people to take home and keep, this made me feel better because I felt like i was doing one last good thing for her.

There are so many resources and sites you can use as well, there’s always someone there to help with your grieving, reach out. Lastly, don’t let people tell you how to deal with it, not everyone can work through it, not everyone heals by keeping busy, some people need time to let it sink in and heal. Do whats best for you.

-S x

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Mini November Haul!

 

Hello everyone, hope everyone is doing well! Today I thought I’d do a little mini haul of these I’ve purchased recently that I really like, all of the products mentioned I either used before or used today before writing this post!

I’ve been on a bit of a makeup hype lately and actually have a M.A.C parcel on its way and a beauty bay one so I imagine there will be another review/haul point coming soon!

Ok lets start, first of all I want to talk about Beauty Bays own palettes that they’re released, I’ve been using Beauty Bay for quite a while now its such a website to find most of your makeup brands all in one place from Jeffree Star to ABH! I was SHOOK when I saw they were realising their own palettes, and honestly they’re so good, there’s 3 altogether ‘Evolve’, ‘Identity’ and ‘Origin’. They’re all very different from more natural colours, to going out, to bright and bold. But can we talk about the fact that you get 42 shades and they’re only £25?! Plus the pan size is huge!!! I also like the fact that they’ve created a grid system, so along the top you have numbers and down the side you have the areas on the eyes you’d put each colour (creases,liner,transition etc) so you can actually follow the columns down and create beautiful looks which is so handy if you struggle with matching colours together or for beginners.

 

Next are some fab finds I found in TKMaxx, much to my surprise! The ABH powder contour palette in light and the Tarte Tarteist ‘Pro Glow on the Go’ palette. I was so surprised to see these there because I always end up going on days where most of the good stuff has gone, but I’m so happy to have found these! They were both £19.99 when the ABH is usually £42 and Tarte is usually £36, that’s crazy! I used both of these today for the first time and I was impressed! I used the ABH palette for my contour and bronzer, they worked well for my skin tone however I wasn’t expecting the pigment to be so strong so I ended up applying too much…oops, I then used the Tarte palette for the highlight. It was quite a nice natural highlight, I think it looked really nice but those who like blinding highlighters won’t have appreciated this one as much. Even though I was impressed by both items I definitely would not have paid full price for them.

I picked up a Real Techniques Body Complexion Sponge because I’ve seen so many youtubers use it and thought it would make doing my foundation easier and it definitely did!. I picked pop a Mario Badescu facial spray from urban outfitters as I really like facial sprays and so many people have spoken about it, it’s now part of my daily routine I spray before I apply my makeup and after I’ve taken it off. It’s so refreshing. And lastly the Garnier Moisture bomb tissue mask, I’ve used this so many times now. I have quite dry skin especially in the winter, so these do my skin wonders and I definitely recommend to anyone else with dry skin!

 

So thats my mini hauls guys, i will be back with a review/ haul whenb my parcels arrive but in the mean time is there anything you want to read? Let me know!!

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The Finished Look, edited on Polarr.

-S x

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The TMI Tag with Soph

Hello, its me again back with another post, however I thought I’d mix it up a tad and do something a little different. I used to see everyone on youtube doing this Tag or the ‘Get To Know Me’ one so i thought, why not do a written version ay? Below will be 60 questions and my real answers to them, no cheating happening i swear!

Enjoy Reading!

  1. What is your biggest turn off in a person? – probably ill manors and no hygiene. Also homophobic/racist views is a NO go.
  2. What is your biggest turn on in a person? being able to make me laugh, same taste as me, smelling good is triple points.
  3. Are you like your zodiac sign suggests that you should be? – yaaaaas literally 100%. I’m a Leo and I’ve never related to anything more than what my star sign suggests it is.
  4. At what age did you realize Santa was not real? – I think i was probably like 8
  5. At what age did you have your first sexual experience? -15 I think
  6. At what age did you have your first kiss? – I think proper kiss would be 14 but i had those childhood pecks most people go through.
  7. At what age did you have your first crush? Who was it? can’t remember the age but I had a massive crush on the guy that plays peter pan lol
  8. What is the best compliment you have ever received? that I have a good personality, makes me smile every time
  9. What is the biggest lie you ever told? I’m not actually sure tbh I’ve never told massive lies only rubbish little ones.
  10. Do you hate anyone right now? – I wouldn’t say hate but I strongly dislike a few
  11. Do you have any hidden piercing’s? If yes, where? no, I’m such a saint
  12. Do you have any tattoos? If yes what do they mean? yes, three, and they don’t mean anything I just thought they’d be cute at the time
  13. Do you miss anyone right now? – yas
  14. Do you smoke? – nope
  15. To your knowledge, have you ever been cheated on? – yes I have lol
  16. Have you ever been in a physical fight? – not that I can think of
  17. Have you ever been in a relationship? – yes
  18. Have you ever been in love? – unfortunately yes
  19. Have you ever been loved by someone you didn’t love back? –not that I’m aware of??
  20. Have you ever loved someone who didn’t love you back? – yep
  21. Have you ever been betrayed by someone you care about? – I feel like i have but can’t think of the exact time or what happened
  22. Have you ever catfished anyone? – this made me laugh but no I have not
  23. Have you ever cried over a lover?– hasn’t everyone?
  24. Have you ever dated someone you met online? – no , thank god
  25. Have you ever given or received a hickey? – much to my despair, yes to the latter
  26. Have you ever had a crush on a teacher? – ugh yas
  27. Have you ever kissed a non-family member on the lips? – of course
  28. Have you ever kissed for more than two hours consecutively? – ew no, who does that?!
  29. Have you ever kissed or been kissed on the breast? – been, yes
  30. Have you ever kissed someone below the belt? – yes lol
  31. Have you ever lead a person on? – not that I’m aware of but I’m super sorry if I have.
  32. Have you ever lied to get out of trouble? – of course, don’t we all do that?
  33. Have you ever liked a person your friend was dating? – deffo not
  34. Have you ever masturbated to a picture or video? – nope
  35. Have you ever played a game involving stripping? – nope
  36. Have you ever used somebody for your personal gain? – nope, don’t think so anyways
  37. Have your ever been heart-broken? – oh boy, yes
  38. How far have you gone to get something you desired? not very
  39. How many relationships have you had? -2 proper ones
  40. What do you weigh? – ugh god knows, I don’t wanna know
  41. How tall are you? – about 5 ft 4
  42. If applicable, when did you lose your virginity?  – just after my 16th birthday
  43. If you could bring back a person from the dead who would you bring back? – my granddad
  44. If you could choose one Disney prince to marry who would you choose? – that’s a tough one, i genuinely don’t know
  45. If you could choose one Disney princess to be your best friend who would you chose? – anna
  46. If you could get married to any celebrity who would it be? – Jensen Ackles
  47. If you could, what would you change about your first kiss? – the person
  48. If you had to live in the world of the last T.V show you watched where would you be living? whatever world american horror story hotel is, LOVE IT
  49. When was the last time you insulted someone? – I honestly don’t remember
  50. When was the last time you were insulted? – literally yesterday, after being called less pretty than someone, not funny and also told that I wasn’t dedicated to my job
  51. Mention a movie that always makes you cry? – happy feet, don’t ask lmao
  52. On a scale of 1-10, 10 being the highest, how horny are you? right now? 1
  53. What is the scariest thing you have ever experienced? I once witnessed someone trying to commit suicide by jumping in front of cars
  54. What color of underwear are you wearing right now? white
  55. What do you think about the most? dogs probably
  56. What do you think is your sexiest feature? I get compliments on my butt quite a lot
  57. What is a disgusting habit you have? –picking the skin on my fingers
  58. What is a relationship deal breaker for you? – control, rules, not being monogamous
  59. What is your relationship with your parents like? – very hit and miss, sometimes we get on really well and other times we wont speak for months
  60. Have you ever had a pregnancy scare? – oh god yes

So there you have it! 60 random facts about me, i hope you all enjoy reading it and i’ll be back with another post very soon!

Sincerely, S x

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Big Collective Haul! Superdrug&Primarko

Hello everybody! Hope you’re all well. So I’ve been on a couple of shopping trips and I’ve been gathering items and products up now so I decided to do a sort of collective haul. The majority is actually makeup but there’s a couple other bits from primark which aren’t that I’ll include at the end.

Let’s get started! So first up I was SO excited when I saw that E.l.f was actually in the Superdrug store because for some reason I thought it was only on the website, not sure why but I really wanted to try some of their products. I picked up the primer in the moisturising version (£7.50), the Lip Exfoliator in ‘Sweet Cherry’ (£4.50) (it’s smells amazing!), I also got the brow cream in ‘medium brown’ (£5.00) and the cream eyeliner in black (£4.50). I can’t wait to test these products out and if you want a review post on any of these products please let me know in the comments☺️

Next I noticed that Nip and Fab had a half price sale on and I’ve been really wanting to try their products but the prices always threw me off. Whilst they had the sale on I decided to pick up the powder contour palette in Light (£7.50, usually £15) Again, if you want a post of reviewing this then let me know!

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I picked up a back up of the MUA kohl eyeliner pencil in black because it’s literally £1 and so pigmented, it’s something I use daily so having a back up comes in handy. I also picked up the new Prism Loose Powder Highlighter in ‘Oceanic Wonder’ and I swear when I opened it and some of it like puffed up it was SO pretty like a unicorn sneeze. Weird description, I know, but that’s the only way I can explain it.

I don’t really wear foundation but I thought I’d invest in one that quite a few people have spoken about, I picked up the L’Oréal True match foundation in 1.N Ivory because I have quite pale skin but natural undertones, I tried it today and it’s actually a really good match, it doesn’t feel dry on my skin which it good because I have dry skin anyways so I didn’t want anything too matte else all the patches show up. I really like this foundation, it’s not heavy either it’s very lightweight doesn’t feel cakey at all, I love it.

I am a sucker for the products and things they put by the checkouts and when I saw three baskets full of Models Own products for just £1.12 each (I know right?!) I had to have a look and pick some bits up! I mean, at that price it doesn’t even matter if they turn out to be a bit rubbish. I picked up the Tea Tree Healer Concealer in the shade 02 which is fairly light but not too light. I picked up a ‘Lix’ which is a Liquid matte Lipstick, in the shade ‘Raspberry Mojito’ which is quite a nice purple, a ‘Luxestick’ matte lipstick in the shade ‘Ciao’ which is a lovely pinky/red shade and finally a Sculpt and Glow highlighter stick in the shade Incandescent 03. It’s a purple toned highlighter but not so purple that, that’s all you see. I’m really happy with these little bargains and can’t wait to try them out to see if they’re actually really good or if they’re worth the price.

This post is much longer than I thought it was going to be and part of me wishes I did YouTube vids so that you guys could listen rather than having to read all of these but I just don’t have the confidence for that even though I’ve wanted to start a channel for SO long now.

Anyways the next brand I went to was Freedom makeup. Freedom is by the same company as Makeup Revolution called Tam Beauty and both brands are SO good and super affordable. I think I own enough Makeup Revolution to own a pop up shop but that’s besides the point! I picked up one of their empty palettes (£3) because they were also doing half price on some items so I grabbed a load of the eyeshadow, contour and highlight pans to go with it. I got 1 contour pan in shade number 2 which is a cool toned contour shade perfect for paler people like me. I got a pack of 3 highlight pans in the shades ‘Side Chick’, ‘Oh Boy’ and ‘Trust Issues’ (LOVE the names btw) they’re the more golden toned highlighters, the other pack was more pink toned. I also picked up a pack of 5 eyeshadow pans in the shades ‘Delicious’, ‘Sugar Rush’, ‘Icing’, ‘Brown Sugar’ and ‘So sweet’. This pack was quite a neutral set with two pale shades for setting your primer then three browns for transitions and darkening the crease for a natural look. There were singles eyeshadow pans too so I picked up two in the shade 9 (matte) and shade 8 (shimmer). I needed some new brow products so I picked up their duo brow powder in medium brown, usually I would’ve picked up the shade Taupe but I think they’ve discontinued that shade so I mix the two shades in this one instead.

You can never have too many brushes right? So I picked up the Real Techniques luxury edition Ultimate eyes brush set and honestly I couldn’t believe it was only £7.49!! It comes with 5 brushes in total, including 2 exclusives brushes which are the essential crease brush and the eye liner brush, and also exclusive to this set is the mirror to go case which is going to come in handy when I go away in a few weeks. But can you believe the whole set was only £7.49?! I can’t!! My boyfriend also bought me the Powder Brush and the Sponge from the Brush Crush collection but I’m not allowed them until Valentine’s Day because they’re gifts😬 but I’m so excited to use them😍.df879197-11fb-4c9c-90c8-cdb56b4ea6e5

That’s the Superdrug part over and done with FINALLY, now a few bits I got from primark. First of all I picked up a oversized makeup bag so I can put all my beauty bits in one place when I go away, I love the pattern and the colours of it and this was just £5. I also picked up a plastic container for my cotton pads I used for makeup removing, I was honestly to excited when I saw it (sad I know) because I was tired of having a massive pack of cotton pads lying around and now they’re tidy and look nice on my vanity. Then I picked up three lip products because I was curious about the quality of Primark makeup and some of it was on sale so I just grabbed a few to try out. I picked up a Satin finish liquid lipstick (£1) in the shade ‘Selfie’ which is a cool toned purple shade, I then picked up a metallic liquid lipstick lip kit (£1) in the shade ‘Dynamite’, a deep purply red shade, and a Matte liquid lipstick (£3) in the shade ‘Flutter’, a cool toned nude pink. And finally I picked up some fluffy socks because when I’m at home I always have cold feet and these are my go to so I always pick some up as they’re so affordable.

So that’s all for this post, I hope you guys enjoy reading it. Let me know in the comments if you want swatches or reviews of anything in the post!

Sincerely, S x

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New Year, Better Me!

HELLO everyone! Happy new year, hope everyone is well and had a good end to 2017. It is me, I am back after having a very long time off to sort myself out and you know what? I am feeling amazing for it! I can not stress enough how important your mental health is so if you need to take that time for yourself then do it, you’ll feel so so much better for it! 

I am so happy to be back and very excited to have been placed on the shortlist to work with some brands which has led to a very exciting opportunity for me but i’ll talk more about that in my next post…no spoilers yet!

Anyways this was just a small post to let you all know i am back and creating new content so..

Watch this space!

 

Sincerely, S x

How to relax after a long/hard day

Hello my lovelies! Hope you’re all having a fab week! Today’s post is about relaxing after a long or hard day. Everyone needs to relax every now and then so here are 5 ways you can do just that!

  1. I’ll start of with how i relax, I’ll usually come home put on some comfy chilling clothes and make a cup of tea. Especially in the winter months, a hot cup of tea and comfy clothes is a nice way to just relax in the evenings. I also light a scented candles because candles make me feel more relaxed and the smell are really nice too.
  2. Have a warm/hot shower or bath, take your time and then get into comfort clothes and take a nap or just relax in bed or on the sofa.
  3. Sit down for the evening and watch your favourite show or movie, either by yourself or with your friend/partner. Seems simple but it is a really good way to unwind.
  4. Colouring, you’ve probably all seen those adult colouring books that everyone loves, right? They are actually really good stress relievers. I often colour in the evenings and it really does help relax me.
  5. Meditate, i don’t do this personally, but meditation is a widely known way of relaxing, i would recommend just giving it a try!

So these are 5 ways i thought of, that you could relax after a long or hard day. Feel free to comment below if your have your own ways that other people could try!

Also my Q&A requests are still open i’ve only been asked 2 questions so would love some more from you guys!

Sincerely, S x

Blog Goals // 2016

Before NYE I was thinking about my general resolutions and goals for the new year. It made me think about what I wanted for my blog too because you’ve got to have plans right? Otherwise there’s no point in doing it. I’ve seen a few people do a blog goals post so I thought I’d share mine with you!

My main goal is to reach a wider audience, this isn’t for any fame reasons just purely because I’ve always wanted to have a wide range of people who I comunicate, I love reading the comments that are posted and I love helping people out so the wider the audience the more I can do this!

Another goal would be to make my post as interesting and creative as I can, I want to make sure that people want to read the post rather than seeing and scrolling bye, I want to be able to relate to everyone who reads it. 

I guess I mainly just want to improve all aspects to make it a bigger,more interactive place, I really hope I can do this because my blog means a lot to me!

I also want to know what your blog goals are! Share them below! 

(If you don’t have a blog then share some of your general goals for this year!)

Sincerely, S x